Window To My World

Hello, reader! I wish you a hearty welcome. You will be introduced to the author, in case you have never known her, or get to know her better, in case you already do. As you read on, you shall find yourself delving into her words with a curiosity to find answers, perhaps to some unsolved mysteries in YOUR world.

Prior to my present state of mind, I was in a strange dilemma. Maybe it is normal for a seventeen year old Indian girl to experience that. Stranger still, I saw glances of my past – both good and bad. These flashbacks would amplify if I closed my eyes for a moment or simply remained silent. I reckon a lot of people come across this point in their life when the actual world around them stops for some time and fades away, while their own world gradually takes over their mind. It might even happen in lightning-fast flashes of thoughts. They can’t even understand why they think of these things because nothing in the present reminds them of these memories. The same may be applied to certain dreams. You may fortunately have a great day throughout the morning and yet, still be awoken at dusk by a nightmare. The cause may be something as trivial as an absent-minded thought.

Let me help you get a hold of what I’m trying to say. Dreams are a mode of communication between your sub-conscious self and conscious self. Now, this entire concept is based on human psychology and philosophy, neither of which I truly and completely have knowledge about. I am only seventeen! I only speak what I believe in. I still have a lot to learn and am trying to. To brief it out, dreams are a way of your inner self (sub-conscious self) to tell or show your outer self (conscious self) about the things that you dread, ignore, desire or cherish. At least, that’s what I was told or learnt.  That was a piece of information I wanted to share with you, dear reader. So maybe the next time you get weird dreams, you won’t be baffled as much you used to and end up with the conclusion that you don’t understand yourself and feel stuck with the same.

Moving on, I’d like to take this ride a little off-track by asking you a question – How are you?

 If this question appears to be a no-brainer to you, that’s great! I wonder what that wonderful reason might be that made your day YOUR day. Maybe it was someone’s smile (which is the most adorable reason), your successful result (Congratulations!), completion of your long-term work (Welcome back!), or any one of the millions of other reasons for you to be happy.  So dear happy-rider, it’s great to have you onboard! Maybe you feel like eating ice-cream right now (maybe not, just an option). But… I need you to tighten up your seat-belts because we never know that when we run out of time (time of happiness, here). At this point, I might’ve just ruined your mood a little, if not a lot. I profusely apologize and regret it but don’t you think there’s a tiny little tot of truth in what I just said, that we never know that when we run out of time? I mentioned a few paragraphs ago that you may fortunately have a great day throughout the morning and yet, still be awoken at dusk by a terrible dream. The cause may be something as trivial as an absent-minded thought. Well, that’s how life works and we all know that, and we don’t need a lecture on it from me. My point is if someone is high up there on cloud nine, that person might as well take a quick rain-check, to avoid repercussions of the rain and slippery roads in the future (in case something was to happen). That translates to: If you’re way over excited or too happy about something that had/has happened or will happen to you, pause for a moment and try to think for once or twice, what if… something happens totally out of the blue and before you know it, it’s gone. Just like the setting sun, beautiful and spectacular but in the blink of an eye, it’s gone.

 Let’s be a bit less pessimistic, (I just realized I was making your current mood go from being bad to worse) the ‘something happening out of the blue’ does not necessarily have to be a disaster or devastation every time but it can also be a small disappointment, dissatisfaction or a setback that you don’t realize until later. So what I am proposing to you, reader, is that enjoy the time of happiness while it lasts and keep it in your memory to cherish in the distant or near future. But at the same time, beware of cloudbursts. I mean, keep an eye on the other side of possibilities that might just let you down. Watch your step or you might fall off the brim of that cloud. So if you are high (as in extremely happy, not the other one (drunk)), it’d probably do you good if you tightened the seat belt a little and not let yourself sore into the skies for too long. I understand that the lines above are very vulnerable to a debate but I would like to keep it that way. Also, it might occur to you as to why I’m saying all this under the title ‘Window to my world’, because I’d been in a very strikingly similar situation at one point of time. I still wish that no one experiences that excruciating pain I felt but alas! As a line on one of my books ‘The Art of Being Brilliant by Andy, Andy and Darrell’ says- When the sun shines, it shines on everyone, and when it rains, it rains on us all. I agree and hence, I also believe you know it too that at some point in your life, you will also have to find your way through when the night comes down on you. But anyways, I’m genuinely happy to know you had a good day so Happy Random-Happiness Day! If you’ve made as far as this sentence then I hope my apology has been accepted but I can’t promise I won’t disappoint you again! After all, you shouldn’t make promises you know you can’t keep.

To ring a bell, my question was “How are you?” The words that followed the question up to this sentence were meant for the ones with the answer, “I feel terrific.”

Now for those of you who think I should’ve started with a lesser complicated question, I’m sorry you feel this way. Of course, I wonder what that dreadful reason might be but it’s okay if you don’t want to talk about it. Sometimes, we should let people have their space because poking him with the same request to share the problem might just start bothering him even more. I won’t dare to write the possible reasons for your gloom, the way I did for the ‘happy-riders’. But dear blue-rider, I am honored to have you onboard. The reason is despite your condition, you are strong and willing enough to set on this journey through my world, and you still care enough to know what I have to say. Perhaps, you have a hope to feel better by going through this. May I say, dear rider, I will try my best not to disappoint you.

I hope whatever is bothering you works out well soon enough. Things might not be okay right now, but it will be. I asked the happy-riders to tighten their seat belts but I’ll ask the blue-riders to loosen them up a little. Don’t choke yourself by being so uptight. If you tie yourself up to the ‘seat of hatred’ so firmly, how will you ever get a chance to fall in to the ‘seat of love’? At this point I might’ve just tweaked your mood by a few notches, if not a lot. Dear reader, did you realize something that I just did? It’s easier to ruin someone’s mood than to cheer them up. That’s a harsh truth for an optimist like me. I know I wrote a bunch of pessimistic stuff few paragraphs ago but I truly prefer the optimistic side and I strongly believe in spreading love like an epidemic or, say, a wild fire.

They say, “A smile is a curve that sets everything straight.” That’s something well said. Life can be hard sometimes, no doubt. Everything will seem to go south on you at such times. You’ll probably wish you could just take a break from everything. Well, if bad things were never meant to happen, then how would you know what good things were? I mean, if bad things did not exist and the world was a place of only good things, you wouldn’t even know that everything was good around you, because you didn’t know what bad things were. You wouldn’t even know what happiness is or how precious a smile is. Dear blue-rider, nothing is as bad as it seems. All you need is a little bit of love. You need someone to understand you and tell you that you’re not alone, that it will be okay. You need a reason to smile, laugh and be happy. You need a friend. Let it be me, and I say that, “You are a very good person whom bad things have happened to.” That’s also something Sirius Black told Harry Potter. You deserve to be happy. I’ll tell you something interesting, reader. You can be happy for two basic reasons –

(i) Something good happened to you or someone else.

         (ii) Something bad happened to someone else.

You can be sad for two basic reasons –

(i) Something bad happened to you or someone else.

         (ii) Something good happened to someone else.

The second reason in both the cases is true if some kind of hatred, jealousy or revenge is involved. Once again, this is a figment of my thoughts that I wanted to share with you. Actually, it’s something that I realized while writing this blog. You may say it’s a new spot in my world that came as a result of this blog.

So, dear blue-rider, do you remember the last time you smiled? Think about the reason. If you’re smiling right now, as you read, nothing could make me happier. So for me, now is the time I’m smiling and you are the reason.  But, for those broken hearts that still hear thunder everywhere; I want to tell you that, “Things might not be okay right now. But it will be. I promise.” I say the same to my friends when they’re feeling low. You see, “When you’re young, everything feels like the end of the world. But it’s not,” as Mike O’Donnell told to his daughter in the movie ‘17 Again’. There are, in fact, a whole bunch of great lines said by great personalities but the thing is – YOU are the only one who holds the key to the doors of YOUR life. Sometimes, there are so many doors to choose that it makes you blind in confusion. Otherwise, there’s just one door in front of you and your mind tells you that it is a do-or-die situation. But it’s not. A do-or-die situation does not belong to the same door. One leads to life or struggle. The other leads to death or pain. As Buddha said, “Pain is inevitable but to suffer is optional.” So don’t let your mind or heart convince you to a lie. Life is a journey. Complete it. You only live once but if you do it right, once is enough. Also, dear readers, never take anything for granted. You only realize what you had when you lose them, whether it’s something or someone.

To wind it all up, I’d just like to thank you for being a patient reader. I hope you could understand what I meant to say. I’ll try to bring something better to you in the blogs that follow. May God bless you.